would you believe me?

bonnaroo is now a mere 11 days away, and the excitement could not be higher. our groceries and supplies are bought, the laundry is in piles waiting to be washed, and the ipod is loaded with bonnaroo musicians.
i believe this is going to be the best thing that's ever happened to me.
i'm leaving my fears here in mesa. the moment i walk out my front door towards a silver civic will be the moment i'm free from any inhibitions. i won't dance like no one's watching, i'm going to dance like i'm surround by 80,000 people and just don't care.
i'll introduce myself as suzy and won't think a second about it. gone will be my self-consciousness. i won't worry about my hair, about my makeup, or whether those jeans make me look fat. my size 18 ass makes me look fat, but for 16 days it won't matter. i won't hold back, i'll be the girl i know i am.
i won't rely on alcohol to be social and at ease. it's all in the head, and i've got my mind set on making friends.
when we leave friday morning, i'll be the independent girl i've always dreamed of being.
and when we get back, i'll just be santa again. but i'll have some wild stories.